In Need of a Clean Heart: Sex, Societal Lies, and Bipolar Disorder

Men as Medication

Modern society’s lies about sex, undiagnosed bipolar disorder, and lack of self-worth created a mess that almost destroyed my family. Self-medicating with men is not a healthy way to cope with the symptoms of mental illness. What would it take for me to recognize the destructiveness of my choices?

I’m over at Defying Shadows talking about Men as Medication: Unhealthy Coping.

I sat in my uncomfortable metal folding chair as the giant tent cleared. A few hundred women gathered on a campground to step back from the day-to-day, enjoy fellowship, and praise God. I felt alone. No one could possibly understand how I felt. None of the women I came with would even think about doing what I did.

The speaker had asked us to picture our heart like a house. With others, I had silently asked God to open the closed doors, light up the dark corners I would rather keep hidden, and blow through with a cleansing wind. I did not expect much. But something had to give.

Sometimes God grants me an image, like a mini-movie, that illustrates the invisible spiritual side of a situation. For a moment, I stood in an open space, the only walls diaphanous curtains, billowing and floating in a strong breeze. Everything was white, and bathed in light. Uncluttered. Peaceful. Clean…

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